In our Wednesday night kids club program, we’re using the Roller Coaster curriculum from High Voltage right now. In our introduction lesson, we talked about how life can be like a roller coaster — high points and low points. Sometimes, we can feel on top of the world only to be crashed to the bottom of the roller coaster the very next day.
Let me tell you, I can relate.
We’ve certainly had some highs and lows in the past year, and I bet you have too.
Yet, through it all, I know that God is good. Even when things look very discouraging and scary, I have learned that God is still good.
As Lucy from Narnia tells us, He is good, but He is not always safe.
Even when things feel very frightening and final, I know God is working on a bigger plan.
I have taught the lesson (usually about Joseph’s life in Genesis) about how we can only see a small piece of the puzzle while God can see the entire picture (I even included this object lesson in my new book), but I have to tell you, it looks a lot different when you’re living in the small puzzle piece and wondering what on earth is going on with the rest of the picture!
I’m sure Joseph wondered if God had forgotten him as he sat in prison for over 2 years. I’m sure Abraham was wondering what God was up to as he waiting for his promised son to be born. I’m sure the people of Israel got very discouraged as they lived through the 400 years of silence waiting for for the promised Messiah.
It’s easy for us to see the big picture in these stories because we have the whole book, but I would imagine that things looked pretty discouraging and scary for many of the people in the Bible. And yet, we know that God was with them. God was working on a bigger plan.
After we got the report that my cancer had spread, I went again to my rocking chair and cried. I prayed and I cried. And in those moments, the Lord spoke to my heart — “I will never leave you or forsake you”.
I know this is true.
Things continue to be a bit of roller coaster for us, but I can tell you things are looking and feeling a lot better than they did a few weeks ago. I feel God’s presence and I see his intervening hand as He provides for us in amazing ways.
I’m so thankful for the many blessings we’ve encountered in the last few weeks — cards from family and friends, people praying near and far, gift cards, meals, and enough volunteers to drive me to and from Cleveland (2 hours away) every day for my 25 radiation treatments. And a neighbor who offered to bring us dinner every Tuesday. 🙂
During my first two days at treatment, God remarkably provided encouragement through the other people in the waiting room. Both days, people were sharing how God had brought them through their own cancer journey. On the first day, a woman with almost the same story as mine shared how she desperately wanted to raise her children and God indeed granted her request. The next day, both couples in the waiting room with us shared how God had used their hardships to draw other people closer to the Kingdom. Even my doctor said she would be praying for me.
There are other stories — ways God has brought special encouragement into our lives and I am so grateful. I’m grateful that even though I am still in treatment, that I can continue to be involved in Children’s Ministry. I’m grateful that even though I have to travel to a hospital two hours away each day, I can still be at home to tuck my children into bed at night. I’m grateful that I get to spend all those hours on the road with friends and family who care about me — and to be honest, we’re having a bit of fun on those trips!
We’re still on the roller coaster, but I don’t feel terrified anymore. I know God is with me.
Please continue to pray that this treatment will be effective. That it will indeed destroy all known disease, and that this cancer will not return. I know God is able. And I know that God is good. No matter what happens in this journey we call life, I will continue to trust Him and be grateful for all He has done for us along the way.