I recently started reading through Becoming Myself: Embracing God’s Dream of You written by Stasi Eldridge.
You may be familiar with Stasi’s earlier book Captivating which touched the hearts of many woman. I, myself, heard good things about her work and was excited to give Becoming Myself a look.
Stasi’s style of writing is quietly poetic and cultivates a soft stirring within the heart of the reader. She speaks to those often covered up and hidden places in our lives with an authenticity and genuineness that is both disarming and comforting. She writes of personal struggles and urges readers to examine their own lives in a deeply private way in order to more fully become who God has created them to be.
In the early chapters of her book, Stasi suggests that the Christian walk is less about trying to working hard and becoming a perfect person and more about cleansing our lives in order to reveal the treasure God has already made. She writes,
“What if change is actually [God] just unveiling who you really are?”
“God restores us — the real us. Once we surrender ourselves, he gives us back our true selves.. The process often feels slow, interminable even. But lasting change takes time. But God is a God of process, and he has his eye on eternity. His plans for us aren’t for a quick fix but an eternal transformation.”
At this point, I was nodding my head in agreement, amazed at this fresh way of looking at the Christian walk. What if it was less about dying to self and more about being alive to who Christ wants us to be? Isn’t that liberating? Encouraging?
I was excited to dive further into the book, but I stopped short when Stasi began to urge her readers to dive further into their past. In all honestly, I like the past exactly where it is. I’m with Timon and Pumba on this one. My childhood, though not the worst of childhoods, wasn’t exactly pleasant. There were many fearful days and tears and scary moments. My parents divorce was perhaps the best part of my childhood, because it meant that I could leave an abusive situation. And things got better. A lot better. I like my life now and the family I have and I don’t want to go around remembering or trying to “work through” all those moments in my past that I’ve forgotten (and thankfully so).
However, we are shaped by our past.
Does leaving all those things unresolved effect me still?
Does it change the way I parent?
Does it make a difference in the way I treat my husband?
But I just don’t want to face it.
“We do not have to remain captive any longer. Yes, God uses our stories to shape us. He works all things for the good of those who love him, even the horrible things. Jesus is inviting us to recover those parts of ourselves we have tried to hide or lop off in hopes of being more acceptable.”
You can see why I might not like the book.
It’s hard to face the ugly parts of our lives. But what if it will make me more holy? What if it does draw me closer to God in a way I’ve never experienced? What if facing those things and dealing with them makes more into the person God created me to be?
Is it worth Becoming Myself?
As you can see, this book is not a fast read, but it is a meaningful read. And one I would certainly recommend. It requires pausing and pondering. Thinking and examining. And a lot of praying and surrendering.
I know I’ll be working though it, and maybe a few other things as well.
Disclosure: I was given a complimentary copy of this book in exchange for this review. This is a sponsored post. All opinions expressed are fully honest and my own. Photo Credit: Flickr by Jesus Solana.